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Different fikrah

8:49 AM, Tuesday 10 June 2008 .. Posted in Muhasabah diri .. 2 comments .. Link
Yesterday, a fren of mine wrote "mira, seram tgk status awk sejak dua menjak ni". She of course was referring to the status we all put on our YM. Lately, Ive been putting my status eg. "YaAllah.. Berkatilah setiap semangat jiwa, untuk selalu berjuang dijalanMu. Berjagalah hati yang kadang redup, tertiup angin duniawi.." or some other stuff simillar to that. These are all nasyid lyrics actually.

When she told me that she was seram reading those type of status, it hit me that this might be the chance for me to do some dakwah. So I gave her a nasyid that has always brought tears to my eyes, titled Sebelum Terlena by Hijjaz. I told her to listen to it before going to bed. Switch off the lights, lay down on the bed and listen to the nasyid. The lyrics have always moved me, and I was hoping it would do the same to her.

There might be some people who would say.. "that's not the way to dakwah.", but I am inclined to disagree with you. We all have different levels of fikrah. Some have more understanding of our religion than others. Some were not brought up or taught of the right ways of Islam. So dakwah to different types of people must use different types of methods.

Ive met a variety of people in my 23 years of life. Some people are stubborn, some egoistic that they do not like being reminded of Islam, yet others with far more gentle souls. Thats where you should differentiate between what methods to use. Its much easier to dakwah to people you know rather than strangers. Well, this is the case for me personally. For those who I can reach out to, Alhamdulillah. Im just sad and scared for those who I didnt and cant.

Now I am finally willing to admit that my life during my uni days were filled with fun fun and more fun. Although I never strayed away from my priorities, it was still coupled along with laughter and fun. Dont get me wrong, we never did anything against the law or anything. Having fun is good for you. We always hear the saying that laughter is the best medicine. But too much laughter has its consequences.

When you have too much fun, you forget Allah. Too much laughter will end up with tears in the end.

I still remember what one of my frens said. It was right after the Gener@l Electi0ns, when Baris@n Altern@tive won over Selangor, Perak, Kedah, etc. We all met up in YM having a conference. One of my frens was howling out accusations and saying horrible things about what our future was going to be like (in her opinion) when BA takes over.

She said..
"Habislah nanti lepas ni. Hancur negara kita. Nanti semua concert-concert mesti kene cancel..!"

Then she went on and on, bad mouthing this person and that, from one party to the other. I was so shocked with the points of her 'argument'. Concert? She was more worried about not being able to go to concerts?!Astaghfirullahalazim.. what is the world coming to? No wonder Allah leashes out His fury more onto this world.

I was speechless. I didnt know what to say. How can I argue with someone who doesnt understand the concept of the whole thing. What I dont get is that they know what is right and wrong. But they "make fun" of it, as if its not that important to be taken seriously. They always say.. "Aku punye seru untuk pakai tudung tak sampai lagi. Nanti satu hari aku taubat la. Nanti aku pakai". YaAllah please forgive them.

This is all due to lack of understanding behind the tasks Allah has given us to do. The different level of fikrah makes people see a situation in a different perspective. Allah's hidayah is given to those He alone wishes. We cannot force them. We are still to remind them. But the choice to change is their own. We always pray that Allah show them the right path. But it is still sad to see how they dont seem to want the change anytime soon.

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[199] Terimalah apa yang mudah engkau lakukan dan suruhlah dengan perkara yang baik, serta berpalinglah (jangan dihiraukan) orang-orang yang jahil (yang degil dengan kejahilannya).

[200] Dan jika engkau dihasut oleh sesuatu hasutan dari Syaitan, maka mintalah perlindungan kepada Allah, sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mendengar, lagi Maha Mengetahui.

[201] Sesungguhnya orang-orang yang bertakwa, apabila mereka disentuh oleh sesuatu imbasan hasutan dari Syaitan, mereka ingat (kepada ajaran Allah) maka dengan itu mereka nampak (jalan yang benar).

[202] Sedang saudara (pengikut) Syaitan-syaitan, dibantu oleh Syaitan-syaitan itu dalam melakukan kesesatan, kemudian mereka tidak berhenti-henti (melakukan perbuatan yang sesat lagi menyesatkan itu).


Al-A'raaf Ayat 199-202


YaAllah please forgive me. Thank You for always reminding me of my right path, the path of light.


Muhasabah

4:30 PM, Monday 9 June 2008 .. Posted in Muhasabah diri .. 0 comments .. Link


Today..

9:53 AM, Wednesday 4 June 2008 .. Posted in Muhasabah diri .. 0 comments .. Link
Today I will delete from my diary
two days: yesterday and tomorrow
Yesterday was to learn
and tomorrow will be the consequence
of what I can do today.

Today I will face life
with the conviction that this day
will not ever return.

Today is the last opportunity
I have to live intensely,
as no one can assure me
that I will see tomorrow's sunrise.

Today I will be brave enough
not to let any opportunity pass me by,
my only alternative is to succeed.

Today I will invest
my most valuable resource:my time,
in the most trascendental work:
my life;

I will spend each minute
passionately to make
of today a different
and unique day in my life.

Today I will defy every obstacule
that appears on my way trusting
I will succeed.
Today I will resist
pesimism and will conquer
the world with a smile,
with the positive attitude
of expecting always the best.

Today I will make of every ordinary task
a sublime expression,

Today I will have my feet on the ground
understanding reality
and the stars' gaze
to invent my future.

Today I will take the time to be happy
and will leave my footprints and my presence
in the hearts of others.

Today, I invite you to begin a new season
where we can dream
that everything we undertake is possible
and we fulfil it,
with joy and dignity.

* I got this from one of my friend's blog.


Not Measuring Up

8:26 PM, Tuesday 3 June 2008 .. Posted in Muhasabah diri .. 2 comments .. Link
This post was inspired by Kak Lollies post regarding Hj Azmil Mustapha. About how he changed from someone dwelling in entertainment into a committed Muslim.

It was a wake up call for me.

Seeing him and listening to his stories. How he changed, what made him change, what influenced him to strive to become a better Muslim, I felt so ashamed of myself.

Yesterday, my day felt dull and sad. I felt disappointment in myself. Being someone who has been learning about Islam from a young age, I even went to an Islamic school for 9 years all the way to form 5. But Im ashamed in myself for not being able to live up to Hj Azmil's enthusiasm and conviction.

Ive been taught Arabic, tauhid, fiqh, sirah and akhlak. Ive been taught how to read the Quran with Tajwid, memorise the surahs and learn the Tafsir. But Im not even close to what Hj. Azmil has achieved. His semangat.

We always listen to motivating and Iman increasing stories such as this. But somehow or rather, this particular one moved me. It went deep into me and woke me up from a deep sleep.

Like I told Kak Lollies, most of us takes things for granted. We live each day just as it is, without the conviction to be more committed in our ibadah. At times, we forget Allah. During these weak times, we do things we already know are wrong. But we do it anyway bcoz its "easier" or "more fun".

We forget about all the nikmat He has granted us. Our sight to see, our ears to listen, our fingers to touch. He can take them back in an instant, we know this. But we still use our eyes to see maksiat, we still listen to people mengumpat, we still touch things that should not be touched. We forget Him.

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Allahumma,
Please forgive me for all my sins
Please forgive me for all the times I have forgotten You
Please forgive me for always giving into temptation
Please forgive me for doing all the wrong things even though I knew they were wrong
I am lost without You
YaAllah, please give me the strength to survive this cruel world
I need Your guidance and support
Without it I am bound to go astray
Allahumma,
I need Your love and your Rahmah
Please grant me the willpower to be Istiqamah in my Ibadah
To be khusyuk in my prayers
To always be reminded of my duties as a humble servant
YaAllah
Please forgive me for forgetting the nikmat You have given me
Using them for the wrong reasons
Forgive me YaAllah, YaAziz..
Give me patience and perseverance in becoming a better Muslim
Amin amin yaRabbal Alamin..
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Thank you Kak Lollies =)


Layar Keinsafan

11:04 AM, Monday 18 February 2008 .. Posted in Muhasabah diri .. 0 comments .. Link


Its a great song. Listen to the lyrics. They're deep.

Silent Death

3:37 PM, Monday 21 January 2008 .. Posted in Muhasabah diri .. 1 comments .. Link
I woke up this morning like every other day, took a shower and got ready for work. Until I picked up my phone.

There were 6 missed calls from a juniour of mine, Mirul. Before bed, I always put my phone near the bed so that I'll b able to hear the alarm. But last night I think was too tired to check. So my phone was in silent mode --which explains why I didnt hear the 6 missed calls in question.

Something didnt feel right. No one calls you that early in the morning. So I called back once I noticed the alerts. Mirul in one of my many juniours who is very close to me. He's more like a brother to me.

Not knowing what to expect, I called him back with my usual happy-self. I asked him whats wrong. Thats when he dropped the bom shell on me. "Mama meninggal pagi tadi. Dalam kul 2".
Dup. I suddenly felt my heart give a huge pump. It took me a few seconds to fully understand the meaning of what he was saying to me before I reacted.

There's never any best thing to say to someone who just lost a loved one. I remember not feeling any sense of comfort with people saying "Banyakkan bersabar" when my grandfather passed away. It isnt the least bit comforting I assure you. People dont want to hear that. They just wanna know that they are loved and have people who will help you thru this hard time.

There are also times when you just want to have a good laugh. Have something to laugh about just to forget about how unhappy you are. It doesnt mean ur being rude. It doesnt mean you're being disrespectful. Its just a way of dealing with the situation. There's nothing wrong with that. Different people deal with it in different ways. So what you say to comfort someone doesnt mean it will work with someone else. Thats why you have to be very careful with how you react when someone tells you their loved one just passed away.

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Mirul, the fourth from the right.

Mirul is the eldest child. He said something about having to be strong for his siblings. Yes, thats true. But we are all but humans. You cant stay strong forever. Everyone has to deal with reality sometime. I'm really sorry I cant be there to support him. All I can do is pray from afar.

I think that Mirul's mum might have died due to liver failure. Mak said that other than the heart, the liver can also be the cause of silent death. We dont realise that we're sick until it's too late.

Whatever pun, it was her time. Allah does love her more. I would like to send my deepest condolences to Mirul and family. May you be strong thru these hard times. I pray that ur mum sentiasa berada dalam golongan yang di Rahmati Allah. Aminn.. Al-Fatihah.

Thank You Allah..

4:26 PM, Tuesday 11 December 2007 .. Posted in Muhasabah diri .. 2 comments .. Link
A little reminder of the things we always complain about.

Alhamdulillah Oh Thank You Allah..

For the wife who says "It's spagetti tonight", because she is home with me and not out with someone else.

For the husband who is on the sofa being a couch potata, because he home with me and not out doing haram.

For the teenager who is complaining about doing the dishes, because it means she is at home and not on the streets.

For the taxes I pay, because it meens I'm employed.

For the mess I have to clean up after an openhouse, because it means I have been surrounded by friends.

For the clothes that fit a little too snug, because it means I have enough to eat.

For the shadow that watches me work, because it means I am out in the sunshine.

For the lawn that need mowing, windows that need cleaning, and gutters that need fixing, because it means I have a home.

For all the complaining I hear about the government, because it means we have freedom of speech.

For the parking spot I find at the far end of the parking lot, because it means I am capable of walking and I have been blessed with transportation.

For my huge heating bill, because it means I am warm.

For the sister who is reciting the Quran too loudly, because it means I can hear.

For the pile of laundry and ironing, because it means I have clothes to wear.

For weariness and aching muscles at the end of the day, because it means I have been capable of working hard.

For the alarm that goes off in the early morning hours, because it means I am alive.



Think about it. I did. =)