A few minutes after that, he called me. He said that he went to see the head of his department with my CV, and told me that I should also apply doing masters by research at UTM. He told me that he has oredi reserved a topic for my masters. He wants me to create a Game Engine.

Fiuh, thats gonna be really tough! Arghhhh! Hahahhaha..

Game Engine huh? Oh wow. Im seriously in need of reading materials. I also have to start learning DirectX, coz this is gonna involve a lot of programming.

Im both excited and frightened at the same time! Hahahhaa.. But it was a huge boost to my self confidence when he told me that his department really wants me in their team =). I hope Ill be able to meet their standards.

Wish me luck people!! Arghhhhhh!!

Yup, its true. Im finally graduating. After 6 long years of studying (actually 3 years if u minus the diploma =P), its finally coming to this day. Fiuh *wipe forehead*. Its been a fruitful 3 years. Thats for sure. I cannot believe its finally over. Although I agree when ppl say that studying years are the best years of ones life, I still wanna start my career sometime. Lagipun, I just couldnt stand my uni anymore. The first 2 years was great, but I was practically dragging my feet on my final year. Couldn't wait to get out of the place.

We have this love and hate relationship, my uni and I. I was given every opportunity to excel here. I gained my self- confidence, my reputation, a great deal of knowledge, a whole bunch of wonderful friends and colleagues. But I must say that Im starting to hate my Uni, more specifically the administration, for reasons I wont mention. Yet.

I love my uni for allowing me the chance to prove myself. To become the person I am today. I love my lecturers. But I hate the management and how they treat us. Ok ok, Im not going to go into that.

Anyways, my graduation is next month. On the 16th and 17th, at PICC. I cannot wait to meet up with my frens again =)

Talking about Graduation, I received a call about 2 weeks ago from my uni, telling me that I was nominated as a candidate of a special award. They wanted me to come down to KL for an interview. You cannot start to imagine my excitement, as well as how nervous I was! Hahahha..

I never tot of being nominated, coz as far as I know, all Ive been doing for the past year was complaining, complaining, protesting and more complaining. I wasnt that active in co-curricular xtvts in my final year (compared to my first two years of course) and was one of the leaders for boycotting the student affairs department after their 'little' incident with me =P. Haha.. oh yeah, Ive been bz alrite. Protesting n boycotting. Hahaha..

Anyways, with the notion of being black listed in mind, I didnt even hope for a nomination. Hahahha.. But as u can see, I still was. =P

I have to confess that Ive never been to a formal interview before. This would be my first time. So I was seriously nervous. I convinced Mak to teman me to KL. At the last minute, Ayah said die mintak cuti to teman me also. Hehhe.. I love my parents! Muahx muahx.

On the way to KL (we balik hari by the way), I was so nervous that my hands were shaking! Literally! Hahahah.. but Ayah calmed me down and we did some last minute preparations along the way.

It was a group interview which lasted 1 and a half hours! Adoi.. the group before me only took 40 minutes. Apesal ntah lama sgt. Ayah told me to smile a lot, so I did that till the point my face hurt! Hahhaa..

First they asked us to introduce ourselves, then they asked about our achievements. There was also the the question of what qualities we think a unikl graduate should have. We were asked ideas on how to improve the university in the sense of academic, where we see ourselves in the next 5 years, and of course current issues.

I think I missed out a few questions, but I dont really remember everything. it was kinda a blur =P. But I did try my best, thats for sure. I was used to starting first, so when the interviewers said that anyone can start, I jumped to the opportunity. Lagipun the other 3 ppl senyap je. After I finished, the girl beside me decided to have a go. The interviewers talked in English, so I assumed that I should answer in English too. But when the girl beside me started to talk, she was stumbling with her words. So one of the interviewers said that we could all speak in any language we found comfortable. So she spoke in Malay. Same as the other two boys. But when everyone finished the introduction, this is what the interviewers said:

"Actually, the reason why we made English the medium of instruction here in UNIKL is for you to speak English"

Pergh.. malunyer! Hahhaa.. thank God I spoke English from the start. Fiuh. Hehhehe.. But believe it or not, the other 3 candidates still spoke Malay right to the end. If I were in that situation, I would terus speak in English. Tak kira la merangkak ke tak, at least we should try. Dont u agree?

Anyways, I kinda stumbled a bit on the 3rd question. Apesal ntah, my mind went totally blank. Even the lady interviewer said that it seemed like I was more concerned about my English till I forgot my line of thought. Hahhahaha. Well, that was true. But I kinda laughed it out and agreed with her, so the head interviewer said that they'd come back to me. That was the worst moment during the whole interview! Arghh! But I did sampuk back in the end. I was too nervous, so I calmed down first and answered again afterwards. Fiuh. Nasib baik my answer was a good one. Hehhe..

But I didnt like my answer for the current issue question. I stressed out the issue of global warming, etc. But even so, I didnt have many strong points, so personally I think I sounded a bit like a hypocrite. Isk isk..

Since Ive never done such an interview before, I rate my performance as 5, from a scale of 1 to 10. Ayah n Mak senyap je when I said that. When ayah asked me about the questions and how I answered, he said.. "Ish, bagus la tu! Ayah down je bile awk kata 5. Five is average je. Id give you an 8!"

Hahhahaha.. Adoi. Id like to think that parents are always bias =P. Still, it gave me hope. But whatever pun, Im okey if I dont get the award. Like mak said, being nominated pun dah cukup bagus, just like the oscars. But id be lying if I said I didnt hope for it.

See what I mean? Hehe..